So I made the decision not to take the new job that I was feeling so anxious and conflicted about. Tonight I composed an email thanking the lady who offered it to me, but letting her know that for personal reasons I would have to decline. After hitting send, I felt an enormous sense of relief. Tonight I will be sleeping easy for the first time in a week. I think that's a good sign that I made the right decision!
Oh, and here's something nice I wanted to share. My little miniature rose bush is blooming! It's growing in a large container on my patio. I love it's sweet little flowers!