It's my last weekend off before returning to work. I plan to spend today and tomorrow at home, reading and puttering around my garden and spending time with Marco, George, and Poppy. All the things I'll be missing next week.
Yes, all of a sudden, I was crying at breakfast over going back to work.
Gregg was kind of alarmed. I had to assure him that I was okay, and not nearly as worried and anxious as all that. I'm sure everything is going to be alright. Maybe things will even be better than I expect! One can hope, anyway.
Working for a living sure can suck sometimes. My heart is with you!
ReplyDeleteOh that's not nice, my daughter is finding her teaching job very stressful.. I loved it. I hope it will be a lot better than you anticipate.
ReplyDeleteI taught for many years and loved it. Suddenly I didn't any more and found it stressful. That was when I applied for - and got - early retirement. I was very lucky.
ReplyDeleteI think your body is telling you how you truly feel and that you should pay attention to that. Oh, honey!
ReplyDeleteI loved teaching…took me forty years to have my dream…my first year I lived in Florence SC. And taught Ronald McNair…I did not love Middle School…the principal at Marlboro High contacted me…I taught two years there and loved it…I wanted to live nearer Myrtle so taught two years Lake City High after they contacted me…Ioved every single day…a new teacher in the 1990’s in my 40’s…my daughter was expecting my first grandchild on Indiana so I accepted a job in WV, my home state…more money and better benefits too…I loved the schools where I taught in WV…ended up retiring after almost 20 years from my alma mater…I subbed until age 70…got Master’s age 60 and taught university at night…loved it…I still help home school some of my grands and some other students online…going on 80 and no plans to quit…if you can’t live it…don’t do it…life is just too short…enjoy your blog…
ReplyDeleteI used to cry in my car while sitting in traffic on the way home from work. The stress caused by my boss's obnoxious son was not something i could get away from as he sat behind me in the office. I had already checked other employment options and found none which paid what I was being paid, and being a single 50ish divorcee I needed that money to survive. So I feel your pain and wish you well. Please know I am thinking about you.
ReplyDeleteAs a former HR person, I will tell you what I told everybody who was not happy with their job: move on. Find something you like, because if you're not happy, your employers not happy. You have a lot of good skills. Find a job that appreciates them.
ReplyDeleteMs Moon is absolutely right
ReplyDeleteAgree 100%
DeleteAnd Dave R, too. Keep your head down at work; put it out among your friends that you want to move on and have they heard of any jobs.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful things to miss. All I can say is that it will be what it is and to handle things one day/step at a time. It could be better, it could be worse, and as Dave says, there are other jobs out there.
ReplyDeleteI think you may be surprised by how many people think exactly the same as you. Work places far too often have bad atmospheres, and certain fellow workers are always prepared to make life unpleasant. Cliques form, and certain people become targets. It's all so unnecessary and should be spoken about in situ. Those who cannot behave themselves should be sacked. It should be a pleasure going to work each morning.
ReplyDeleteBless your heart. Cro Magnon is right about people thinking exactly as you. I've been in some horrid situations myself but managed to pray my way though. I just steeled myself, focused on the work I was doing and loved, plus I had lovely supportive coworkers, blocked out the rest best I could. In taking that approach, I outgrew the toxic people, toxic environments, door opened, I moved on. It's a process. I did know one coworker who so hated her job and her boss that she said she cried every morning in the shower as she prepared for another day of work. Take care of yourself. Look for something to focus on that you enjoy, ignore the rest.
ReplyDeleteLots of loving advice from commenters above. You shouldn't have to dread going to work.....it might be time to move on to a job that you could love and be appreciated. I was " bullied" at work for a time by my female boss . I told a colleague how I felt, and she said she would speak to said boss for me as she knew her better. I said please don't it might get worse. However things got better and I discovered a few years later that she had spoken. On the boss's last day she couldn't help herself tell me off for being 5 minutes late! "Water off a ducks's back" on that happy morning! Stay strong.
ReplyDeleteWhen all else fails, start your day with the focused thought of all you have to go home to after work...the love of Gregg, George, Poppy and Marco. Thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteI'm sad for you, and I hope it turns out to be a better workplace this year than you fear. There are changes, and that will bring new energy. Fingers crossed for you!
ReplyDeleteI love what Boots and Braids said, so much. Focus on the best and the toxic stuff will leave you.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry it's weighing on you that much. It sounds like everyone above has said pretty much what I would say: Accentuate the positive (as the song says) as much as possible, and meanwhile, keep thinking about ways to improve the situation, whether that means a new job or making the existing one better.
ReplyDeleteAw, poor dear sweet Jennifer! I have had sudden emotional outbursts like that, too, at times that I found stressful, such as after my husband died. The tears would surprise me mid-sentence and there was nothing I could do. But I guess it is a way of coping with pressure, and better to go along with it than trying to stop it.
ReplyDeleteWould give you a hug, if I could! Sometimes life just gets a bit much. But, as they say, there is always a rainbow after the rain.
ReplyDeleteTears are the way I cope with most emotions. But sometimes they do catch me by surprise. I hope it is better than you are expecting. And this is unsolicited advice so take it as such: If you continue to feel this amount of stress over your job, consider if it is worth it for you.
ReplyDeletelet us hope so.
ReplyDeleteHi, Jennifer!
ReplyDeleteI'm slowly winding my way back to the blogosphere... Wanted to say I'm thinking of you this Monday morning, your first day back at work, and hoping it goes well.
If not, as people say, you have other options in your future--this will not be forever.
I was injured this week and spent a few days reading Harry Potter--it was perfect to spend time at Hogwarts--talk about a stressful workplace!
Watch out for soggy toast!
P.S. Your house is as bright and beautiful as those luscious tomatoes. Dogs at the door--you are loved.
DeleteI'm so sorry. I know how it feels to not want to go to work. I have a better job now, but I still hate leaving Franklin and Penelope.
ReplyDeleteLove,
Janie
I'm so sorry..wish you could just stay home..sending love
ReplyDeleteI am sending you hugs and imagining something good job wise is in your near future.
ReplyDeleteI am sorry for your worries. I hope you find your new position better than your old but if you don't like it, then look for something else and move on. You have given that place a lot of time to hear you and work with you. It might be time to go if this doesn't work out. Be happy and find comfort at your sweet home.
ReplyDeleteWhen I worked in schools, we all looked forward to the summer break but when September loomed there was a lot of anxiety for everybody as we prepared ourselves for the long and busy school year ahead. When you have a week or two weeks off you have still not lost your connection to the job but after six weeks the threads have become more tenuous and you have almost forgotten what you do for a living.
ReplyDeleteDear Jennifer, how are you after your first week back?
ReplyDeleteThinking of you, your friend
Meike X